The 30th – Billie Eilish

Sometimes you look the same
Just like you did before the accident
When you’re staring into space
It’s hard to believe you don’t remember it
Woke up in the ambulance

You pieced it all together on the drive

I know you don’t remember calling me
But I told you even then you looked so pretty
In a hospital bed
I remember you said you were scared
And so was I

In a standstill on the 5
I thought it was unusually early traffic
Usually I don’t panic, I
Just wanted to be on time
When I saw the ambulances on the shoulder
I didn’t even think of pulling over

I pieced it all together late that night

And I know you don’t remember calling me
But I told you even then you looked so pretty
In a hospital bed
I remember you said you were scared
And so was I

What if it happened to you on a different day
On a bridge where there wasn’t a rail in the way
Or a neighborhood street where the little kids play
Or the Angeles Crest in the snow or the rain?
What if you weren’t alone? There were kids in the car
What if you were remote? No one knows where you are
If you’d changed anything would you not have survived?
You’re alive, you’re alive, you’re alive

And I know you don’t remember calling me
But I told you even then you looked so pretty
In your hospital bed
I remember you said you were scared
And so am I